When my teacher and classmates supports you more than your family.
I seriously hate it! Don’t they understand that I NEED TO DECIDE ON MY OWN WHEN IT COMES TO COLLEGE? Yes, I may have failed on high school, but that’s it. I did it on high school, but I would work hard so I would not do it in college. You always worry about what you want. What about what I want? Whenever no one in my family supports my decision, I feel sad, not because nobody’s willing to pay for me, but because they don’t understand me completely. If they’re worried about me asking for fancy stuff, they shouldn’t. I’m not a social climber. Ngano? Katong nagpakasal silang mama ug papa, nagbuot ba ko? Ning ana ba ko nga dapat en grande? Di ba wa man? Katong nagpakasal akong ante ug amerkano, ni ana ba ko’g “ayaw pakasle na”? Wa jud ko ka ingon ana! Ni suporta pa gae ko! Katong nagpakasal akong eg agaw, nalipay man gae ko nga invited sad diay ko, kay abi nakog iyang gepang invite ra kay silang mama’g papa ug iyang mga amiga! Pero that’s the point di ba? I can support your decisions, but you can’t support mine. And what’s left of me is the hope that one day, you will let me decide on my own, and you took that hope away. Next time, I won’t bother deciding on my own when I have YOU to decide for me, for where I’ll work, for where I’ll stay, for what I’ll eat. Doesn’t matter what I do. It always needs your approval, right?
Do you remember when I said I wanted to take up MassCom at USC? You all said no. You all said I should take up commerce. Now I want to take up business ad at the same school. You still don’t want me to. WHAT THE FUCK? Ing’anang sturyaa, kamo nalay pag ako! Kamoy tiwas sa akong mga project karon, kamoy graduate ug high school! KAMO NA TANAN! INYO NANA! LAMYA HA! LUMLUMAN PA NINYU, IDC! I don’t want to bad mouth you, but you gave me the choice and I had to. Nangutana akong cousin nganong mag buot daw ko asa ko skwela. DO I EVEN NEED TO ANSWER THAT? KAY AKONG FUTURE ANG NAKASALALAY DIRI, DILI INYO, DILI NILANG MAMA UG PAPA, DILI PARA SA UBAN KUNDI PARA SA AKONG KAUGALINGON!
You were willing to shell out 20k+ for my sister’s course, but you’re not willing for mine? That’s fine by me. But for you to decide on what I should do is something I can’t leave alone. And now, I’m afraid of my sisters going to college, because you might decide for their futures, too. Nga imbes gusto ni Michelle sa UP mu skwela, adto sa CIT kay layo ang UP. Nya gusto ni An’2 mag modelling, pero gusto ninyu mag accountancy kay way future ang modelling.
If you had broken dreams, don’t pass it on to us. And I take my own father as an example. According to mama, gusto daw ni papa kay accountancy. Pero ang gipakuha ni Lola niya kay engineering. So nikuha sad sya. Then what? Nalipay sya? Or malipayon sya? If so, nganong dili man sya engineer karon? Nganong tig bangka man syag baraha sa casino? And sa among orientation, ana tong speaker “Don’t let your parents decide for your future, because they won’t do it for you and you’re not gonna do it for them. You’re doing it for YOURSELF.”
If I agree to what you want, don’t expect too much from me. Because I won’t be motivated.
If you will agree to what I want, I might not be in the dean’s list, I won’t be a scholar, or maybe I’ll get passing grades or low average, but I assure you that I will be happy. That I will not regret choosing USC over CIT or USJ-R. Because I chose it.
And the only thing I regretted was letting everyone decide for me.